I have walked the path of self destruction many times in my adult life
Seeking pleasure to avoid the pain
To distract myself from feeling lonely, bored, or uncomfortable
The addiction only temporarily fixed the problem
Whether that be drugs, alcohol, gambling, or sex
Soon you become numb to it’s effects & you seek more of a rush & upping your dose
Not realizing the self destruction happening within your mind, body, and soul
Until one day (hopefully) you feel the pain so deeply that you decide to attempt recovery
It can take a lifetime of effort but anything worth doing in life does
I vow to never give up on myself & to keep trying
With aloha,
Johnny
The Narrow Path 