Life comes with challenges for us to learn from. I have had many challenges come my way from my many experiences in college, breakups, moving to Hawaii, New Zealand and Australia. I always had a great attitude about it because you learn so much about yourself by experiences; good & bad. You can always make a new decision today that can better your life.
I never doubted my decisions until this year. Early in this year I kept making decisions out of fear that put me in living situations that compromised my health & happiness. In February, I started feeling hopeless & lost. I lost faith in my own intuition. I felt like I lost my own ability to make decisions for me thrive physically, mentally, and spiritually. It’s a feeling that’s hard to describe. It’s like you’re lost in a maze and you keep questioning every decision. This can lead to feelings of hopelessness, fear, and despair. Eventually you question yourself so much that you just stop trying & depression sets in. You start living your life paralyzed by fear & self doubt.
I know this situation will end eventually, all is impermanent. A huge part of me wants to move back to Australia & start making decisions out of love instead of fear of failure or not having enough money. A part of me wants to move back to the central coast of California and a part of me wants to stay in Colorado Springs with family. I keep bouncing back n forth in my decision. Thank you to my family & friends for your patience & love while I try to figure out the next step in my life. 🙏🏻
Entitled, bitter, and upset
I cause my own suffering
What’s the antidote for this mental condition?
How could I lose sight of all the things I could be grateful for?
Grateful for my job
Grateful for friends and family
Grateful for life & it’s infinite possibilities
The conditions of happiness are always available at any moment
Even through the darkest times we can cultivate joy through gratitude
We can bring our breath back to this exact moment
Peace & joy can only be found in the here and now
The illness of our times
Our minds wander to the future
Grasping for control
Wanting to know what will happen
The truth is that the future is completely unwritten
Because of impermanence, anything is possible
Let’s stop trying to control the uncontrollable
If we want a better future, we must take care of the present moment
Transformation is all around us
But we don’t see it
A caterpillar turns to a butterfly
A seed to a flower
A cloud to rain
Humans have this ability as well
We have the ability to transform our suffering to joy
The ability to change & growth through challenging situations
One of the fastest growing addictions in the world is gambling addiction
With more availability than ever, more people are going through challenging circumstances because of this addiction
Many lose their house, job, and family
Some even lose their life to this addiction
1 in 4 attempt suicide, the most out of any addiction
Losing money from gambling is tough to deal with but nothing compares to the guilt, shame, and regret that haunts you
I’m 3 weeks sober right now
I’m determined not to gamble
I have lost 50k in my lifetime but also have put untold stress and anxiety on myself because of this addiction
My life purpose is on the line
True freedom is not the freedom to self destruct
But to be free of our addictions running and ruining our life
It’s been two weeks since I last gambled
Addiction rarely ends over night
It’s a journey that can bring you to your knees
Open your heart & mind
I must see the flashing lights of the casinos as bait to a fish
The casino’s hook dragging me into debt, despair, regret and suffering
I must see gambling as self destruction instead of an illusion of pleasure
If I can be mindful & remind myself each day of the self destruction of gambling
Then I will be free to live my life without the burden of financial debt & despair
Freedom is a requirement for true happiness, whether that be financial or mental
To truly touch happiness, we must let go of old habits, thoughts, and ways of living that cause us suffering
Attachment is at the root of all suffering
Attachment to youth
Attachment to wealth
Attachment to our spouse, family & friends
Attachment to life itself
If attachment is the root of all suffering..
What is the root of joy?
Freedom is the root of joy
Freedom not to hurt ourself or others but freedom from fear, anger, and hatred running and ruining our lives
Liberation from old ways of thinking & doing that make us miserable
Today is the day to start changing, even small changes can lead to huge results in time
When we look at nature, we see that everything is impermanent.
Even our own sun has a shelf life
So why do live as if relationships, wealth, family members, and our own life will last forever?
If we live a full life, one life is enough.
We spend our life building our identity.
From a very early age; the music, tv, & friend group shape our identity. What we consume, becomes part of us.
But we often struggle with letting go of this identity, even when this identity is responsible for the destruction of our own joy.
We fear that if we let go of this outdated idea of who we are that we lose ourself in the process.
But the truth is that old identity was never truly us.
It was shaped by our family, culture, religion and media
So who do we truly want to become?
Do we want to self destruct our own lives clinging to the past?
Or do we want to liberate ourself & embrace a new life that is inline with our values & vision?
The first step is to release that you are worth taking care of.
Your life & happiness does matter.
The chose is ours, even minute of each day.
We can always change at any moment
Even the smallest shifts can snowball into a radically different life.
If not now, then when?
There might be a heaven
There might be reincarnation
Or there could be nothing
I do not claim to know anything for certain
When I am firm with a belief of what happens after life
I lose all grace
I lose all faith
I lose all wonder
Instead of claiming to know anything
I sit closely to uncertainty
And whole universe opens itself to me
It’s everlasting wisdom humbles me each day
Be weary of those who claim to know anything for certain
To truly help others
Focus all your energy on healing yourself
Be kind always but don’t sacrifice your own health & well-being by focusing your energy on others
It is possible to reduce others suffering and help others see the inner Buddha that lives within all of us
But if we are drowning in our own suffering we can’t help others who suffer
It is possible to awaken
To not let fear, hatred, anger, and ignorance run & ruin our lives
No matter your skin tone, gender, age, or wage
Thanks to impermanence, we can transform our suffering into joy
And we can help others do the same
Not by force but through understanding, compassion and forgiveness