Life comes with challenges for us to learn from. I have had many challenges come my way from my many experiences in college, breakups, moving to Hawaii, New Zealand and Australia. I always had a great attitude about it because you learn so much about yourself by experiences; good & bad. You can always make a new decision today that can better your life.
I never doubted my decisions until this year. Early in this year I kept making decisions out of fear that put me in living situations that compromised my health & happiness. In February, I started feeling hopeless & lost. I lost faith in my own intuition. I felt like I lost my own ability to make decisions for me thrive physically, mentally, and spiritually. It’s a feeling that’s hard to describe. It’s like you’re lost in a maze and you keep questioning every decision. This can lead to feelings of hopelessness, fear, and despair. Eventually you question yourself so much that you just stop trying & depression sets in. You start living your life paralyzed by fear & self doubt.
I know this situation will end eventually, all is impermanent. A huge part of me wants to move back to Australia & start making decisions out of love instead of fear of failure or not having enough money. A part of me wants to move back to the central coast of California and a part of me wants to stay in Colorado Springs with family. I keep bouncing back n forth in my decision. Thank you to my family & friends for your patience & love while I try to figure out the next step in my life. 🙏🏻
From a very early age; the music, tv, & friend group shape our identity. What we consume, becomes part of us.
But we often struggle with letting go of this identity, even when this identity is responsible for the destruction of our own joy.
We fear that if we let go of this outdated idea of who we are that we lose ourself in the process.
But the truth is that old identity was never truly us.
It was shaped by our family, culture, religion and media
So who do we truly want to become?
Do we want to self destruct our own lives clinging to the past?
Or do we want to liberate ourself & embrace a new life that is inline with our values & vision?
The first step is to release that you are worth taking care of.
Your life & happiness does matter.
The chose is ours, even minute of each day.
We can always change at any moment
Even the smallest shifts can snowball into a radically different life.
There might be a heaven There might be reincarnation Or there could be nothing I do not claim to know anything for certain When I am firm with a belief of what happens after life I lose all grace I lose all faith I lose all wonder
Instead of claiming to know anything
I sit closely to uncertainty
And whole universe opens itself to me
It’s everlasting wisdom humbles me each day
Be weary of those who claim to know anything for certain