Alcohol scarred my childhood
I have lost close friends to it
Alcohol has slowly consumed many of my family and friends
I even had close calls with alcohol overdose in my university years
Yet I will not judge or hate alcohol
I knew 7 years ago that one day I would walk away from alcohol and the destruction it cases
Today I will choose to walk away peacefully in the night
With aloha
Johnny
Fill the hole in my heart
Fill the deep gap within my soul
Take away the discomfort
Numb me to my suffering
Distract me
Comfort me
I don’t want to feel anymore
Consumption of drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling or junk food seems to be the solution to our pain
Temporarily they are good numbing agents, that’s what hooks us in; especially when we first try them at an early age
But in the end it causes more suffering & new financial & health problems
Like quick sand we can fall deeper & deeper into the depths of addiction
With aloha
Johnny
1 month sober
Forever changed
Thank you to those who taught me the way
Thank you to those who taught me what I do not want to become
This path is more difficult but the rewards are great
I will not force my views or tell others to follow my path
I will not fight a crusade or try to convert others to my way of thinking
I will just sip my herbal tea peaceful with non judgement
My life is my message 🙏🏻
Namaste sober
With aloha,
Johnny
Looking for a quick fix.
Pacifiers to numb me.
Numb me from my fears.
Numb me from my insecurities.
Cover the pain deep in my heart.
Patch my broken soul.
Give me that rush of dopamine.
Silence the endless stream of anxiety.
Shine your light into the darkness of my depression.
Even if it’s only for a moment.
Will you please end my suffering?
The Narrow Path 