Cloud of Unknowing

“With an empty mind and open heart, let yourself be naked before grace.

Let your mind rest in this dark awareness of God in all of this naked existence.

It is not who you are or what you’ve been that God sees with merciful eyes, but what you want to be.

Contemplative prayer, when done right, is the respectful love and ripe fruit.

It’s the cloud of unknowing, the hidden love-longing offered by a pure spirit.

It takes you into silence, far from thoughts and words.”

These quotes are from “The Cloud of Unknowing” which is a book of anonymous European monks from the medieval times. Full video on YouTube.

Enjoy 🙏🏻

https://youtu.be/-eviMvlowwU?si=UxaBHcqeBomYMkqo

Look Within

Many look for the Kingdom of God in Church

Many look for the Kingdom of God in the afterlife

Many look for the Kingdom of God in rituals

Those who look outside of themselves only dream

Those who look within their own heart and soul awaken to God’s love right here and now

A Kingdom where love reigns supreme over fear

The light transforming the darkness within and around us

A everlasting spring of love

A sanctuary of healing

Be still and know

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Be Still and Seek the Kingdom of Love Within

If you focus on the surface of life

Everything appears as suffering

But look deep within yourself and you will see the ultimate reality beneath the surface of life

You will see that at the center of your being and all creation is God’s unconditional love

Take refuge in this sanctuary of unconditional love within your own heart and soul

It’s water so pure

Its love is everlasting and healing

Be still and seek the Kingdom of love within you

Beginners Mind

When you have a beginners mind

You become as fresh as a flower

Your mind becomes like a still pond

An empty canvass

Open to the infinity possibilities of life

With a beginners mind

You can find joy in fresh mandarin

You can experience nirvana looking deeply at a bird

Find peace and serenity right here and now

When your mind becomes rough and demanding

You will lose your beginners mind

And life will become dreary and meaningless

Your mind will need more and more stimulation

Leaving you depressed, numb and anxious

In a beginners mind there is true love, compassion and insight

A beginners mind is fresh and alive

In a beginners mind there are many possibilities

For an expert mind, few

To be a beginner, we must practice deep humility

With no thought of attaining enlightenment or any self centered ideas

May my Enemies be Joyful

May my enemies sleep well tonight
May they feel safe and loved
May they heal

May they be joyful like small children
For they are not my true enemy
My true enemy lies within my own greed, hatred and fear

With love,
Johnny

The Miracle of Life

The Miracle of life

Is a seed of mustard

With water, soil, and sun

This tiny seed grows into a large tree

Giving food and shelter to many birds and insects

There are many miracles around us each day

Yet we can’t seem to them

With mindfulness we can see that a cloud is a miracle

It transforms into rain or snow

Giving us life through water and food

We are a miracle

From one cell to a trillion

We can only grasp this if we are still

Not distracted

Not striving

Living in the moment

Jesus spoke of the mustard seed

Just by being still we can see the Kingdom of God right now and it’s many miracles

With Aloha

Johnny

The Three Poisons: Attachment, Aversion, and Ignorance

In Buddhist philosophy; attachment, aversion, and ignorance are the three main obstacles from achieving inner peace within. They are the three poisons of true happiness.

Attachment is said to be the root of all suffering.

Attachment to wealth, youth, ideology, the past, loved ones, life itself etc can drain us and make us miserable. Think of a middle aged woman attached to her youth. You can imagine her worrying about every wrinkle and what others perceive of her. By not accepting ones aging process, we suffer deeply.

Aversion on the other hand drains us of our joy by judgment, anger, or disgust. For example, an aversion to bugs can ruin our time in nature. An aversion to homeless people can stop us from having compassion for them; compassion and understanding can be the root of much joy.

Ignorance can blind us too. When we purposely or unintentionally don’t see information about a topic, we can make decisions that destroy our health and happiness. Cigarettes are a good example of this, most of the population were ignorant for many years of the risk of cancer and heart disease of smoking.

So instead of seeking pleasure or trying to find happiness, could we try to find a middle path between attachment, aversion, or ignorance? Can we learn about a topic so we are not ignorant but also not getting attached or averse to it? Blissful peace is found in the middle of this triangle.

I think it’s possible if we practice. Never think you know everything and the opposite of what you believe is true to someone else in the world.

Zen mind, beginners mind

With aloha,

Johnny

Lost in Self Doubt

Life comes with challenges for us to learn from. I have had many challenges come my way from my many experiences in college, breakups, moving to Hawaii, New Zealand and Australia. I always had a great attitude about it because you learn so much about yourself by experiences; good & bad. You can always make a new decision today that can better your life.

I never doubted my decisions until this year. Early in this year I kept making decisions out of fear that put me in living situations that compromised my health & happiness. In February, I started feeling hopeless & lost. I lost faith in my own intuition. I felt like I lost my own ability to make decisions for me thrive physically, mentally, and spiritually. It’s a feeling that’s hard to describe. It’s like you’re lost in a maze and you keep questioning every decision. This can lead to feelings of hopelessness, fear, and despair. Eventually you question yourself so much that you just stop trying & depression sets in. You start living your life paralyzed by fear & self doubt.

I know this situation will end eventually, all is impermanent. A huge part of me wants to move back to Australia & start making decisions out of love instead of fear of failure or not having enough money. A part of me wants to move back to the central coast of California and a part of me wants to stay in Colorado Springs with family. I keep bouncing back n forth in my decision. Thank you to my family & friends for your patience & love while I try to figure out the next step in my life. 🙏🏻

With aloha,

Johnny

Anxiety

Anxiety

The illness of our times

Our minds wander to the future

Grasping for control

Wanting to know what will happen

The truth is that the future is completely unwritten

Because of impermanence, anything is possible

Let’s stop trying to control the uncontrollable

If we want a better future, we must take care of the present moment

With aloha,

Johnny

Sitting With Uncertainty

There might be a heaven
There might be reincarnation
Or there could be nothing
I do not claim to know anything for certain
When I am firm with a belief of what happens after life
I lose all grace
I lose all faith
I lose all wonder

Instead of claiming to know anything

I sit closely to uncertainty


And whole universe opens itself to me

It’s everlasting wisdom humbles me each day

Be weary of those who claim to know anything for certain

With aloha,

Johnny